filming a short film

Tuesday, March 31, 2026

the last day of march! this day was so exhausting yet a productive one.  got to see my college classmates again too! check this silly photo of our group for the short film were making. this was before i was almost killed by the heat and hunger.

i didn't have a scene the whole morning, so the Moros (us; the ones in white) were just sitting around by the shore, chatting about the most random shit you can think of. i was just admiring the view. the last time that i was here, it was messy, garbage was everywhere. now, i am surprised and glad that it was clean.

after lunch, things started to get hectic, not to mention the sun burning our skin. everytime i looked at the ocean, all i could think was diving. we started at 9'o clock in the morning now it was night. i looked so haggard, here's a photo for reference XD.



we finally shot the last scene (for the moros) and it was the arrival of the moros to the island of the malays. this scene was so funny and scary at the same time. i almost set the pump boat on fire because of my clumsiness. the gas in the torched leaked into the water and suddenly, the water was burning as well. i screamed lol.

after all that stress, we were finally done filming at 9:30PM, but before i gone home, i went to my classmate's house and ate late dinner there. it was great, the food was tasty and after that i went home. it was 11PM, i took a half-bath then went straight to bed.




fuck you facebook

Saturday, March 28, 2026

 i can say a lot of things on why i hate facebook or meta in general. in another time maybe.

back in 2013, i created my facebook account just to play games like dragon city or whatever. and before it was shit, now it is overflowed with ai nonsense and ads. why am i complaining? why dont i just delete my account? well, thats the problem, i cant delete it because my country use it as a primary messaging app. were probably the only country who use facebook. 

my plan now is to delete my current account and replace it with a new one that is only for family, school, and work. i dont want to share anything and i dont want to add/accept friend requests from anybody.

i hope everything goes well, wish me luck!

friends are always temporary

Saturday, March 21, 2026

what up guys! i haven't been here for a long time, life has been hectic right now.


i am starting to lose friends, both my choice and theirs. one close female friend that i have had a boyfriend now and new friends, we havent talk in a while which never happened before. if she wants to distance herself from me, i respect that. it's not like this is all new to me, this happens all the time to all of my (straight) female friends.

again, losing friends is not new to me, however it does hurt a lot than break-ups. i also wanted to bring up how i am always the punching bag of jokes whenever i have a circle of friends, am i that easily to target? if so, id rather be alone than to deal with people like that, i want people to take me seriously. i am fed up with people looking down to me, life is already hard enough and i do not want this crap.

on the bright side, all of these experiences gave me time to reflect on myself, which i did not know that i needed it badly. i was so oblivious of my well-being that i am destroying myself. pretty dramatic but yeah it is what it is.



The Kite Runner Book vs. Movie (Review)

Monday, March 9, 2026

well this is a sad birthday haha but at least i got to finished the book


The Book

I'd say I love this book though quite controversial to some. I can't speak how accurately it represents Afghanistan--the people, culture, or history however a lot of Afghan natives in online forums said it is not. It is fiction after all.

The book tells the story of the brotherly love between a wealthy Pashtun boy, Amir, and his Hazara servant, Hassan, during the cruel war between Afghanistan and Russia. Amir and Hassan grow up together just like true brothers. The racial barrier between Pashtuns, who are a superior race, and Hazaras, who are commonly viewed as inferior slaves, does not hinder Amir and Hassan from forming a strong brother bond. Their relationship is beyond one of a master and a servant; beyond two companions. They are two souls bond tightly by love, friendship, and loyalty. However, just like the brief calmness before a storm, a betrayal in a dark alley unwinds the once-unbreakable bond between Amir and Hassan. Their relationship is further shattered by more sacrifices, tears, and lies. 

The main character, Amir, come off as an envious child but he seems to be an accurate representation of what most humans would do. We think of ourselves highly but can't accept how incredibly flawed and coward we are. Our fear of failure stops us from becoming the better version of ourselves. But, this is what The Kite Runner is all about, right? Shame, guilt, regret, and ultimately, redemption. I could say a lot of things how I like this book, let us make this simple for now.

Considering this is Mr. Hosseini's debut novel. I really loved the way he writes. I might pick up "A Thousand Splendid Suns", which a lot of people have been saying that it is the best book of his. Overall, I think The Kite Runner is a good read, I would recommend it to anyone really.


The Film (adaptation of the novel)

Compared to the book, which was brutal and violent. The film is rather tame. A lot of scenes from the book are cut-off or altered, which I understand considering the nature of the book. Both the book and the movie are based on the same storyline and sharing the same main themes of regret, betrayal, war’s destructive impact and the idea of recovering from a sin. we feel that in Rahim’s Khan words (the best friend of Amir’s father) when he says to Amir” You should come back, there is a way to be good again”

Here are the omissions that I noticed:

  • the cleft lip of Hassan was not mentioned at all in the movie, we did not see any mention to this important physical trait in Hasan’s face.
  • the birthday present in the movie that Baba bought for Hassan was just the kite rather than the surgery.
  • in the film, Amir moved to America when he was only 13 years old, which is different from the book as he was 18.
  • Assef's raping of Hassan was not fully presented as it was in the book (this is understandable, for obvious reasons).
  • the funeral scene of Amir's father in the film depicts the Christian method of burial rather than the Islamic method
  • Soraya's confession to Amir regarding her previous romantic relationship with a man , occurred over the phone rather than in face to face , as depicted in the film.
  • we did not see the moment of Sohrab committing suicide when his uncle told him that he would send him to an orphanage temporarily, despite the fact that it was portrayed in length in the novel. 
  • the beating of Amir was tame compared to the novel, where he was hospitalized. 
  • Assef is not a Half-German Nazi in the film.
  • the adoption for Sohrab was quick in the film, they just boarded a flight to America while in the novel it had some government and visa issues, also the reason why Sohrab attempted to kill himself. 
  • Amir and Hassan's first encounter with Assef was in the hill, taunting them with his brass knuckles, while in the movie they encountered Assef in the streets of the bazaar with no brass knuckles in sight.
  • In the novel, the first chapter is Amir discussing the phone call he received from Rahim Khan. However, in the movie, Amir picks up the phone before the flashback happens.
  • When Amir begins to write his own stories, Rahim Khan’s entrance into this portion of Amir’s life differs. In the movie, Rahim Khan invites himself in, whereas in the book he only enters when Baba ignores Amir’s newly found talent.
  • Amir's reaction to Hassan's death is less emotional than in the novel
  • In the novel, Rahim Khan tricks Amir into going for Sohrab by saying there is an orphanage run by a couple of Americans who will surely take him in. In the movie, they jump right to the case and flat out tell Amir to adopt Sohrab, missing the element of deceit and Amir’s inner struggle.
  • Farid was in the majority of Amir's journey in Afghanistan while in the movie he was just in a few scenes.
  • There were holes dug up for the two people who was killed by throwing rocks in the novel. But in the movie they just put the bodies in the truck.

There are probably more scenes that I have overlooked but you should know most film adaptations of novels are always like this. I did enjoy watching the film even though a lot of scenes are cut. Anyway, I would rate the BOOK 


(4 and half brains out of 5)



biphasic sleep

Tuesday, March 3, 2026

Lately, I am doing every shit possible to fix my sleep and I have failed. I asked randos on the internet for advice and disturbing my friends about it too. So, I did a little experiment on myself and somewhat sacrificing my health haha!

I have heard about biphasic sleep before when I was studying Medieval History for fun---what a weirdo! And it seems fitting to my current situation so why not try it.

Biphasic sleep has many variations. What I follow is:

9PM - 3AM -- core sleep (6hrs.)

10AM - 1PM -- sleep or at least lie dormant (3hrs.)

This might sound extreme to an average human being who is conditioned to sleep in a monophasic way. However, it improved my productivity and stopped oversleeping which I tend to do but take this anecdote with a grain of salt. 

Another reason why it biphasic sleep is helpful to me because as a busy working student who cares a lot about his hobbies, social life and work, I could do all them without sacrificing one of them. When I wake up, I start with my chores and studies otherwise, I do my hobbies and game. After that, I exercise or do cardio which I prefer because I get to see the sun rise and get that Vitamin D!!!

Then, I still have a lot of time remaining before my second sleep.  After my second sleep, I freshen up and attend an online meeting with my class. Then I am off to work. 

This took me a lot of time adjusting, especially not oversleeping on the second phase. But it worked out. Now, will I stick to this? NO, I am not committing to sleep biphasically, I will probably go back to a monophasic sleep when face-to-face classes start again in my college. But for the time being, I am continuing with this sleep schedule. 

Is it healthy? I don't know. Am I happy with it? I guess.

Wish me luck and pray that I will not look like a zombie.