my first zine!!!

Friday, May 22, 2026

years ago, i have always wanted to make a zine. i wasn't creative enough (still am) and i was pretty lazy (still am :]). few days ago, out of loneliness and boredom i made my first ever zine. i am very proud of it considering it is so random and the zine really makes any sense but that's the point of zines, vomiting all your creative thoughts on a paper. in my case, it is my resume lol, it's useless anyway because no one wants to hire me, crazy times. anyway, here it is!!!

cover page




don't mind the quality of the photos, i do not have a phone for months now and used an old tablet to take photos. i plan to make more in the future, it is quite fun and i can't recommend it enough to anyone to make zines in their free time.

 

simple hangout

Tuesday, May 12, 2026

i was so tired of rotting inside of my house, so i texted jacque to hang out and she was feeling the same way so she texted ryza to hangout too. she agreed to and brought her boyfriend (which is fine because i am friends with her boyfriend).

we went to kawit and enjoyed the breezy air on the beach (there was an entrance fee but luckily jacque knew the owner so we got a discount and only payed 50 pesos ). check out these photos




me and jacque doodling

after all that, we went to jacque's house and it was a spontaneous plan. ryza and her boyfriend, dave, bought pasta. they did all the cooking and all i did was eating lol. i wish i had a phone to take photos of our 'feast'. i feel so glad to get out of the house for once.

The Internet Is Making Everyone And Everything The Same

Monday, May 11, 2026

People from around the world were once super unique and deeply rooted in their culture, but now it feels like diversity is fading as the same trends and brands dominate everywhere. Soon, everyone is going to be working for the same big companies, using the same phones, wearing the same clothes, and eating the same food from the same fast-food chains. Even the way people talk, think, and live is starting to look alike because social media pushes similar lifestyles and opinions; culture is becoming homogenized globally as people are basically mimicking what others are doing. The internet has lessened geographical influence on people's personality.

I've noticed people from English-speaking countries are becoming more similar to each other--and nothing seems as special anymore because all of the cultures are starting to disappear and morph into the same. This seemed apparent to me when I realized like 75% or more of slang is created by the black community now, and the aesthetic is very similar; the photos are almost interchangeable with no personality or unique identity, yet these accounts have lots of followers because homogeneity sells and helps one find belonging.

No one really stands out anymore, and there is even a homogenous aspect of quirkiness where you can be whimsical as a woman as long as you fit certain beauty standards. I also notice something similar with film accounts where the same films and filmmakers are given attention, while people like me who talk about films off the beaten path that might be more obscure or outside the mainstream barely get noticed. It is very noticeable when interacting with people that there is less variation than in the past; most people are an archetype of the online content they consume and are way more predictable than in times past. After a brief conversation, you can pretty much have a person figured out if you're familiar with the jargon and perspectives of their online bubble, and it gets worse when it comes to political discussion and politics, as everybody online seems to subscribe to similar ideologies.

crossed (comic)

Thursday, May 7, 2026

god!! i think i have minor PTSD now, words wont do justice on how fucked up this comic is. but the writing honestly sucks (except for wish you were here). the series is so depraved in a way words cannot really get across to the point its basically a sadists wet dream, more akin to snuff films then a zombie scenario. im no stranger to violence and graphic content, but there's a line, and this series not only crosses it but guns it past in a bullet train.

bad night

Tuesday, April 28, 2026

 Ahhhh, went jogging for the first time in months and it was one of the worse nights LOL. There were a lot of people and I hate it because it triggers my social anxiety and for some odd reason, it makes me insecure.

Despite that, it was going well BUT.... the insoles of my shoes started to detached, it was so embarrassing I have to walk barefoot all the way to my house. 

AI in local pageant

Thursday, April 23, 2026

it infuriates me to see the use of ai in creative spaces. while i am indifferent toward people using ai in general, i am completely against it when it comes to creativity. 

i was at a pageant talent night last night, and almost all the candidates used ai-generated images --  or worse, ai-generated songs. it felt so dystopian to me for some reason.

there is something eerie about a live human performer standing in front of a screen filled with ai art. it creates a disconnect -- you have a real person seeking a real title, but their "creative" output is essentially a deepfake. t makes the whole event feel like a simulation rather than a competition

spontaneous night out

Sunday, April 19, 2026

 this was completely unplanned, i fully expected to be indoors the whole 24 hours. however, i decided to shower and change clothes at 5pm because my brother said there was a singing contest near my place, and i really wanted to check it out. i also saw my cousin, and so we went.




i am kinda amazed with what they did with the park, finally some good use of our money. surprisingly, a lot of people as well. 

my cousin bought milk teas and takoyakis (i only ate the takoyaki) and we stroll around the park. we got bored and went to my other cousin's house, there was a birthday dinner and i ate a lot. after that, we walked around poblacion, medellin, from the park to the fair and to the complex, where there was a live band and disco. 

i didnt have caffeine, so i bought an energy drink. few hours later, i was drinking beer. i realised that energy drinks and beer dont mix well in your system, so i felt like dying. 

also, this blog posts might sound disorganised, its either because im drunk or the beer and energy drink mixture is not sitting well in me. god, i might start jogging next week and change my lifestyle. thats all and take care guys

 

invisible and undervalued

Friday, April 17, 2026

 two posts in a day lol, gotta make up for those days that i was gone and felt like giving up. anw,,,,

i live in a very unfortunate life in the context of beauty standards. let me explain. first of all, i am short and short guys always get the end of the stick. i dont know anyone who wants to date short guys. if short guys get mad, we immediately have 'napoleon complex', which is just unfair. im sorry world for not being 6ft.

next, i do not fit usual beauty standard for men, which is having eurocentric features. i dont have those pointed nose (or whatever they call that), fair complexion, a strong, defined jawline, light-colored eyes, and athletic build -- though i think any guy can get that type of body if they want to. it's so frustrating that in my whole family. im the only one who looks east asian. i hate it.

i know you guys are thinking "geez, this guy sounds so insufferable" and yes i am but sometimes voicing these out helps me with my personal problems. i am trying to be better each day despite being a dickhead sometimes. baby steps count.
cya1!!!

repeatedly stuck

these past few months, i have found myself being stuck. whenever i try to change my ways and my lifestyle, i will just go back to my bad habits. like a cycle that will never end. i just wish and hope that this will pass someday but i dont do anything to change that. in fact, i am not motivated nor willing to change it. 


i wish this feeling has a name but sadly, i do not know its name. there are times i eat, there are times i dont. there are times i shower, there are times i dont. there are times i exercise, there are times i dont. it's an endless cycle like i said earlier.

oh i wish and hope that this will end even though it seems it may not end.

filming a short film

Tuesday, March 31, 2026

the last day of march! this day was so exhausting yet a productive one.  got to see my college classmates again too! check this silly photo of our group for the short film were making. this was before i was almost killed by the heat and hunger.

i didn't have a scene the whole morning, so the Moros (us; the ones in white) were just sitting around by the shore, chatting about the most random shit you can think of. i was just admiring the view. the last time that i was here, it was messy, garbage was everywhere. now, i am surprised and glad that it was clean.

after lunch, things started to get hectic, not to mention the sun burning our skin. everytime i looked at the ocean, all i could think was diving. we started at 9'o clock in the morning now it was night. i looked so haggard, here's a photo for reference XD.



we finally shot the last scene (for the moros) and it was the arrival of the moros to the island of the malays. this scene was so funny and scary at the same time. i almost set the pump boat on fire because of my clumsiness. the gas in the torched leaked into the water and suddenly, the water was burning as well. i screamed lol.

after all that stress, we were finally done filming at 9:30PM, but before i gone home, i went to my classmate's house and ate late dinner there. it was great, the food was tasty and after that i went home. it was 11PM, i took a half-bath then went straight to bed.




fuck you facebook

Saturday, March 28, 2026

 i can say a lot of things on why i hate facebook or meta in general. in another time maybe.

back in 2013, i created my facebook account just to play games like dragon city or whatever. and before it was shit, now it is overflowed with ai nonsense and ads. why am i complaining? why dont i just delete my account? well, thats the problem, i cant delete it because my country use it as a primary messaging app. were probably the only country who use facebook. 

my plan now is to delete my current account and replace it with a new one that is only for family, school, and work. i dont want to share anything and i dont want to add/accept friend requests from anybody.

i hope everything goes well, wish me luck!

friends are always temporary

Saturday, March 21, 2026

what up guys! i haven't been here for a long time, life has been hectic right now.


i am starting to lose friends, both my choice and theirs. one close female friend that i have had a boyfriend now and new friends, we havent talk in a while which never happened before. if she wants to distance herself from me, i respect that. it's not like this is all new to me, this happens all the time to all of my (straight) female friends.

again, losing friends is not new to me, however it does hurt a lot than break-ups. i also wanted to bring up how i am always the punching bag of jokes whenever i have a circle of friends, am i that easily to target? if so, id rather be alone than to deal with people like that, i want people to take me seriously. i am fed up with people looking down to me, life is already hard enough and i do not want this crap.

on the bright side, all of these experiences gave me time to reflect on myself, which i did not know that i needed it badly. i was so oblivious of my well-being that i am destroying myself. pretty dramatic but yeah it is what it is.



The Kite Runner Book vs. Movie (Review)

Monday, March 9, 2026

well this is a sad birthday haha but at least i got to finished the book


The Book

I'd say I love this book though quite controversial to some. I can't speak how accurately it represents Afghanistan--the people, culture, or history however a lot of Afghan natives in online forums said it is not. It is fiction after all.

The book tells the story of the brotherly love between a wealthy Pashtun boy, Amir, and his Hazara servant, Hassan, during the cruel war between Afghanistan and Russia. Amir and Hassan grow up together just like true brothers. The racial barrier between Pashtuns, who are a superior race, and Hazaras, who are commonly viewed as inferior slaves, does not hinder Amir and Hassan from forming a strong brother bond. Their relationship is beyond one of a master and a servant; beyond two companions. They are two souls bond tightly by love, friendship, and loyalty. However, just like the brief calmness before a storm, a betrayal in a dark alley unwinds the once-unbreakable bond between Amir and Hassan. Their relationship is further shattered by more sacrifices, tears, and lies. 

The main character, Amir, come off as an envious child but he seems to be an accurate representation of what most humans would do. We think of ourselves highly but can't accept how incredibly flawed and coward we are. Our fear of failure stops us from becoming the better version of ourselves. But, this is what The Kite Runner is all about, right? Shame, guilt, regret, and ultimately, redemption. I could say a lot of things how I like this book, let us make this simple for now.

Considering this is Mr. Hosseini's debut novel. I really loved the way he writes. I might pick up "A Thousand Splendid Suns", which a lot of people have been saying that it is the best book of his. Overall, I think The Kite Runner is a good read, I would recommend it to anyone really.


The Film (adaptation of the novel)

Compared to the book, which was brutal and violent. The film is rather tame. A lot of scenes from the book are cut-off or altered, which I understand considering the nature of the book. Both the book and the movie are based on the same storyline and sharing the same main themes of regret, betrayal, war’s destructive impact and the idea of recovering from a sin. we feel that in Rahim’s Khan words (the best friend of Amir’s father) when he says to Amir” You should come back, there is a way to be good again”

Here are the omissions that I noticed:

  • the cleft lip of Hassan was not mentioned at all in the movie, we did not see any mention to this important physical trait in Hasan’s face.
  • the birthday present in the movie that Baba bought for Hassan was just the kite rather than the surgery.
  • in the film, Amir moved to America when he was only 13 years old, which is different from the book as he was 18.
  • Assef's raping of Hassan was not fully presented as it was in the book (this is understandable, for obvious reasons).
  • the funeral scene of Amir's father in the film depicts the Christian method of burial rather than the Islamic method
  • Soraya's confession to Amir regarding her previous romantic relationship with a man , occurred over the phone rather than in face to face , as depicted in the film.
  • we did not see the moment of Sohrab committing suicide when his uncle told him that he would send him to an orphanage temporarily, despite the fact that it was portrayed in length in the novel. 
  • the beating of Amir was tame compared to the novel, where he was hospitalized. 
  • Assef is not a Half-German Nazi in the film.
  • the adoption for Sohrab was quick in the film, they just boarded a flight to America while in the novel it had some government and visa issues, also the reason why Sohrab attempted to kill himself. 
  • Amir and Hassan's first encounter with Assef was in the hill, taunting them with his brass knuckles, while in the movie they encountered Assef in the streets of the bazaar with no brass knuckles in sight.
  • In the novel, the first chapter is Amir discussing the phone call he received from Rahim Khan. However, in the movie, Amir picks up the phone before the flashback happens.
  • When Amir begins to write his own stories, Rahim Khan’s entrance into this portion of Amir’s life differs. In the movie, Rahim Khan invites himself in, whereas in the book he only enters when Baba ignores Amir’s newly found talent.
  • Amir's reaction to Hassan's death is less emotional than in the novel
  • In the novel, Rahim Khan tricks Amir into going for Sohrab by saying there is an orphanage run by a couple of Americans who will surely take him in. In the movie, they jump right to the case and flat out tell Amir to adopt Sohrab, missing the element of deceit and Amir’s inner struggle.
  • Farid was in the majority of Amir's journey in Afghanistan while in the movie he was just in a few scenes.
  • There were holes dug up for the two people who was killed by throwing rocks in the novel. But in the movie they just put the bodies in the truck.

There are probably more scenes that I have overlooked but you should know most film adaptations of novels are always like this. I did enjoy watching the film even though a lot of scenes are cut. Anyway, I would rate the BOOK 


(4 and half brains out of 5)



biphasic sleep

Tuesday, March 3, 2026

Lately, I am doing every shit possible to fix my sleep and I have failed. I asked randos on the internet for advice and disturbing my friends about it too. So, I did a little experiment on myself and somewhat sacrificing my health haha!

I have heard about biphasic sleep before when I was studying Medieval History for fun---what a weirdo! And it seems fitting to my current situation so why not try it.

Biphasic sleep has many variations. What I follow is:

9PM - 3AM -- core sleep (6hrs.)

10AM - 1PM -- sleep or at least lie dormant (3hrs.)

This might sound extreme to an average human being who is conditioned to sleep in a monophasic way. However, it improved my productivity and stopped oversleeping which I tend to do but take this anecdote with a grain of salt. 

Another reason why it biphasic sleep is helpful to me because as a busy working student who cares a lot about his hobbies, social life and work, I could do all them without sacrificing one of them. When I wake up, I start with my chores and studies otherwise, I do my hobbies and game. After that, I exercise or do cardio which I prefer because I get to see the sun rise and get that Vitamin D!!!

Then, I still have a lot of time remaining before my second sleep.  After my second sleep, I freshen up and attend an online meeting with my class. Then I am off to work. 

This took me a lot of time adjusting, especially not oversleeping on the second phase. But it worked out. Now, will I stick to this? NO, I am not committing to sleep biphasically, I will probably go back to a monophasic sleep when face-to-face classes start again in my college. But for the time being, I am continuing with this sleep schedule. 

Is it healthy? I don't know. Am I happy with it? I guess.

Wish me luck and pray that I will not look like a zombie.


i miss the old youtube

Tuesday, February 24, 2026


(This blog also serves as a test of uploading a video to see if it works, because I do not know if Blogger is capable of it now. But I guess, I'll make a blog about it too, LoL)

I think you guys have enough of my nostalgia related blogs, but anyway, here's another one.

Okay, I know this video was published in 2012 but I just want to share it. 

I miss the old YouTube. Before COPPA, before they removed the dislikes, and especially the only advertisements that you saw were only in the side bars. Now, it seems like YT is plagued with trashy UI and stupid people also inserting ads into their videos.

Everything feels soul-sucking, no new and quality content, every video is recycled from another video. Even worst, a lot of AI bollocks overflowing the site.




Git? I don't git it

Sunday, February 22, 2026

Earlier this evening, Aleksei and I decided to talk about our project, which was recreating ChumChatter. It is made-up social networking site in the TV show 'House of Anubis'. He helped me with setting up a Github account and taught me some basic git commands, which was very confusing at first but I was thankful that Aleksei was patient, despite the audio problems, unstable connection, and my ignorance towards these commands. I am ultimately thankful for him and gave me some inspiration to learn about these commands and also start a formal learning about code languages, right now I am starting HTML and CSS (again!).

Here's the early versions that I made for the outline:

This is the first version that I made.

Then I made some little tweaks to add "personality"

This is the second version.


I hope this little project of ours will turn out great. I am very excited on what will be outcome and I hope fellow fans of the show will share our excitement with this project. I will try to update weekly if I can :D



very cool "retro" website

Friday, February 20, 2026

As I was scrolling through Reddit, I stumbled upon a post from the Neocities subreddit (Geocities revival, I am not sure if it is affiliated). A fellow 19-year-old created an awesome Myspace and Friendster inspired social networking site. Check my profile below. I will also attach a link if you want to join the fun (This isn't an ad btw).


Although, the site is in its development stage, Dario, the creator of the social networking site, said he is also developing an app version. I am just amazed how great the website is, even though it is still in its early stage. It is a great way for people today to experience what was social media back then and take a break from the algorithm-driven and bloated with AI and ads "social" medias we currently have today. I also love how this site isn't full of "I was born in the wrong generation" teenagers. SpaceHey is overflown by those kind of users now. 


Planners and Trackers

Tuesday, February 17, 2026

I can’t even say how much planners and trackers are helping me stay sane these days. Without them, I’d totally lose it with my two jobs, school, and all the other stuff like finance and health. Almost forgot with the never-ending hobbies that I have.

I’m always busy, which I guess is just part of being an adult, but I still make time for some peace and quiet because I need it. I just don’t have the mental energy to be super strict about everything.

On the bright side, this will all be over in about two weeks (I HOPE!)

Blog Updates

This is just a little update on my blog.

So, I changed my theme in my blog. You can probably comment on blogs now and most of it is stable, to my knowledge. Feel free to explore and discover some flaws in this theme that I just added to my blog and make sure to let me know. That would be a great help to me and less hassle in my side.

Change the name to RashingThoughts because it felt more personal than the previous name and I added a little info on the left side bar to know what I am up to.

Thanks and have a good day ahead!

Jokes

Thursday, February 12, 2026

Sometimes, we love a good joke. We want to laugh and have fun. Jokes are a great way to make people laugh even at their lowest. However, some people just cross the line and spit straight out the meanest joke.


Like earlier, I was asking for the soft copy of the form that we need to fill something up mentioned on the class group chat. Of course, I wasn't aware of this as I do not have my phone anymore and I am barely get updated on our class. I try my best to cooperate and not be a freeloader. 


Instead of a kind message, I just got called lazy for not backreading the group. I mean, how do I know that this form was already sent in the group chat. On top of that, I have been the punching bag of jokes for some reason, and I don't want that. I burst in anger and sent a message. And guess what, I got another comedic reply. I just try to let it slip my mind and focus on something more important. 


People are such hypocrites sometimes, they want respect but can even give that to someone else. I am not a sensitive person but I just want to share my experience about how this kind of  behavior is prevalent these days. It is also kind of a traumatic experience with me, I was always repeatedly made fun of when I was in high school by my "friends". One of the reasons why I do not have contact with them.


Kid's Channel

Wednesday, February 11, 2026

I bounced back and forth between both channels but I definitely watched Nickelodeon a lot more. Disney’s movies were way better than anything on TV and they were cranking out a new one every month. They really knew how to build up the buzz around the newest movie too. I can still name at least two dozen of those Disney Channel Original Movies. Couldn’t tell you one from Nickelodeon to be honest.


As far as TVs shows, I felt both channels were pretty equal. Nickelodeon seemed to have shows like Kenan and Kel or The Amanda Show that were pretty much kids’ versions of Saturday Night Live. Disney had the shows like Lizzie McGuire and Even Stevens that felt more like sitcoms. The writing on Even Stevens was seriously good and still holds up to this day. But my favorite shows on the Disney Channel were Phil of the Future and  So Weird.


Nickelodeon almost felt a little “trashier” in a way. It certainly had a little more edge to it at times. It felt a little more “teenager”. Whereas Disney was a little more wholesome and corny.


Both channels had some great programs. Then of course there was Cartoon Network, which was the channel equivalent of your friend’s older brother who smoked weed and had porn magazines under his mattress.


If you wanna know which kid's channel from the Big 3 I prefer, it's Nickelodeon.

2012

Originally posted in: February 6, 2026

 

In light of this crazy 2016 nostalgia flooding our feeds, I definitely do not feel nostalgic towards that year. Maybe a little bit but not significant as my nostalgia for 2012. I also hate how most younger Gen Z and Gen Alpha mistakenly see 2012-2014 pop culture as 2016.

 

I admit 2012 was moreso a mundane year for most people but it was such an awesome year to look back. I frequently go to a lot of parties, social media wasn’t really prevalent, pop-culture was decent, and music was good (but I mostly prefer 90s and early 00s stuff). It gave birth to songs that felt like never-ending earworms. Namely, “Call Me Maybe” by Carly Rae Jepsen and “Gangnam Style” by Psy. AND People thought it was the last year on Earth, thus people developing a YOLO mindset. 

 

I really miss everything on that year. I was either on YouTube or TV for most of my free time.  I still have a very clear memory about 2012. And I almost forgot, that stupid cup song was everywhere, I even learned how to do it. I feel so embarrassed sharing this. Hunger Games were fans crazy, I still remember how famous this was!!! And don’t get me started about Kony 2012.

 

Aside from my memories of that year, it was also a great year for our world. I don’t want to make this a research article or something but this is worth to read.

-The Antarctic hole shrunk

-Teen pregnancy was at an all-time low (something my country needs today)

-Life expectancy was increasing

And a lot more.

 

Thanks for reading! I am really happy sharing something personal in my life. :D

Nostalgia Kills

Originally posted in: February 5, 2026

Hey, it's been a while since my last post and this is it. This though has been lingering for months now and at least this way, I can share it to you.

I've been in and out of this nostalgia phase of mine, and it really bothers me how distracting it can be in my every day life. I feel like I can never move on and try to look and keep moving forward to the future like I used to.

As a kid, I used to calculate how old will I be in that certain hearings future and thought " Oohh, I wonder how will I look and how would I live my life in that year? ". I never frequently look back in the past before because I thought it was futile.

Now, as someone who is in his 20s, I often daydream all the memories that I used to have. My life before social media, when I was innocent and it is beginning to become extremely unhealthy.

Why can't I just try to focus in the present?

Quiet Christmas

Originally posted in: December 24, 2025

 

I think it's just me but the Christmas spirit feels thinner. The street lights still lights up, people still decorating their homes or shops, and traditions are still performed but they feel automated, you know what I'm saying. 

 

Maybe it's just age talking or how pessimistic I've become however it's not of those. I tried to separate my emotions to evaluate the holidays every year but I can't help it, Christmas feels...muted. Even gatherings feels quite.

 

I admit I do long for those days where the world was still vibrant, colorful, noisy, and people were still excited that it's contagious. Now, it kind of feels like a performance and more like a mirror. A reflection of the past but soulless.

 

Well, I hope you enjoyed my little spiel, my dear readers. Wherever you are happy holidays!

Snug as a Pooh Bear

Originally posted in: October 26, 2025

 

Tales of Friendship with Winnie the Pooh (2012) —That's the title of the miniseries, shorts, or whatever you call it, that usually comes up during commercial breaks on Disney Junior when I was a kid. I revisited this memory back when we were all on lockdown because of COVID. It took me a while to find the episodes of it online (even Disney+ doesn't have it). It was so calming and peaceful to watch it again. Makes me remember how I loved Winnie the Pooh (I mean who doesn't?!)


Aside from it's very engaging storytelling and colorful scenes. The bedtime song at the end was always so pleasant to hear. I remember anticipating it every time, it was the perfect lullaby. The piano, the soft voice of the narrator singing which was accompanied with a sweet melody. 

 

~Snug as a Bear Can Be,                            

Dreaming in a honeytree~

 

I always sang along whenever that part comes on. And apparently, it has  localized versions from other countries as well. Namely, Spain, Italy, and Germany with their own respective narrators. The Italian version being my favorite (aside from the English version ofc) but unfortunately the episodes of it are nowhere to be found except for the bedtime song.

 

Just talking about this makes me missed how innocent I was. Hahaha!

Solar Lights

Originally posted in: October 7, 2025


It was September 30th, 9:59 at night where out of the sudden, everything started to shake. Lights were flickering and suddenly my body just drop to the floor and I try to hug my parents, my mum praying and my dad whaling. Without hesitation, I quickly crawl to get my little brother who was sleeping and ill. There my mum and I found him under the drawers, it fell down. Thank God he was okay and wasn't injured. After what it felts like an eternity, the earthquake stopped. The house was a mess. My mum, who was still praying, hugged my little brother tightly.


I looked around the house to see if there's any damage. Thankfully, our small and humble house was okay except for us and the things that we owned. No matter how dim it was, I quickly prepared the necessary things and after that we swiftly head out. But that was not the end.


We walked out then looked for a place that seems safe. We stayed at the place that is in front of our house. It was so cold and dark. The only source of light that we had was just the weak solar light and the stars illuminating us. It was refreshing to see the stars so clear again but the wind started to get stronger and colder. It was a thunderstorm coming. We took shelter in a small restaurant but still we felt unsafe.


My mum and I begged my father to transfer to the container van like my mum's former boss, Chuck, said. He was still stubborn. I was so furious at him, I started yelling him to quit his childish act but he still refuses.

  

The ground was still shaking, each aftershock was stronger than before. I prayed to God to let me see the sun again before I die. Then, the storm began to get powerful and finally my father budged, we swiftly ran to the container van to take shelter.

 

It was so dirty and had a lot of cobwebs. It also had a bedframe where my little slept on it. I refuse to sleep, not because it was dirty (partly it was actually) but I was still shocked. I wanted my mum and and the rest of my family to rest. Because I wanted to see the light. Aftershocks were still happening but my lack of sleep and the adrenaline rush made me numb for some reason. I just prayed to feel the sun again.

 

Note: I started writing this on October 1st. But things happened. It's been one week and there are over 8,000 aftershocks now. I hope everyone will be safe. 

Rebrand?

Rebrand? Yeah, it is. Well, kind of I have been on and off about blogging mostly because I do not know where should I host/post my blogs. But ironically, I just stayed here on Blogger. 

This time, it will be kind of a personal blog, where I will share most of my hobbies, thoughts, and any experiences that I am comfortable sharing online. I no longer have socials but if you want to contacts me personally, I'll link my personal email here after this post. 

I wanted to remind you that I am no professional writer or programmer. I use this as a place to vomit all my thoughts. In this way I feel like I am talking to you guys (more like a close-ended conversation XD). Apart from my long spiels, I also love to share photos from time to time. I mean it is boring just looking at texts. Haha!


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